August 20th, 2020

Today's been a mixed bag of a day: busy in both good and bad ways and, in the end, just a long day, preventing me having much time to decompress and live a little of my life before crashing for sleep before repeating it all again tomorrow. This, the never ending plight of adult life, let alone the life of a resident physician. I still have a little shy of 5 years remaining, so I expect to run into this a lot as the next couple years pass by me. 

I was given latitude to run my own sedation case today, including all aspects of monitoring and medication delivery. Easily, this was the highlight of the day. It's a big step in my mind to have earned the trust of an attending physician to be able to manage delivery of anesthesia as well as conducting a successful surgery. It went swimmingly well and it was a huge self-esteem boost, despite some other muck that I dragged my feet through today. I'm continuing to make steps forward with my training which, in light of that 5 years I mentioned above, provides me needed motivation to keep going when I might feel otherwise.

Tonight, I'm hoping to add a little more to a sketch I'm working on. If nothing else, just put a pen in my hand and scribble something. How's it looking so far?